Someday…
Greetings dear friends & fellow navigators, welcome to my world again this week. There are days when I feel like I am living my best life. But I know nothing lasts forever, for if it did, I would not be able to appreciate these feelings. Maybe this is what it is all about ~ to yearn & believe in a future where these temporary situations last forever.
I understand my privilege, even with all the noise around me, I find clarity in my life like a silent whisper gently leading me to my destiny. Things do not feel out of reach & my confidence in myself is most of the time reasonably high. Failure does not seem like an option & everything seems possible. Everything feels just about right.
As we grow up, our risk-taking appetite reduces. With every decision, we are calculating & finding the least risky way out. Comfort has become second nature to us & we think if something is not convenient, it is not worth it. This is exactly why I have massive respect for people who take risks & throw themselves into the lions’ den.
It is easy to let things flow & be a victim of nature when things do not work out. But it is tough to take charge & claim responsibility for failures. No one likes being told they are wrong, but there are people out there who are okay with being wrong in search of the one decisive moment where everything goes right.
When I look back at my own life, I see a little guy who was braver than the person I am today. He just went into things uncertain. He did not know how to cycle, but with the assistance from Dad, he picked the bicycle & tried nevertheless. A real risk-taker! I owe him everything because had he not, I would probably not have known the joy of so many different experiences. I remember how this child could not wait to grow up. But now I am older, I wish he stayed there a little longer.
We are always in search of our destiny. But maybe it is not a search. Rather, it is a creation beginning with the birth of a dream. We carry within us so many dreams ~ some small, some grand & some really fun. They do not go away in all our lifetime, they just make space for newer dreams to come take their place.
As much as it aches to think of those forgotten dreams, the very nature of having so many dreams leads us from one thing to another until we find what we truly love.
There have been brief phases in my life where the sense of security I achieved from my stability led me to new avenues. When you do not have to worry about paying bills, you inadvertently find yourself doing things you genuinely enjoy. You can finally start living on your own terms & become a master of your time & energy. Couple this with a partner you love & your life could potentially coincide with the forever you always dreamt of having. How beautiful would this be!
But at this time in my life, I have come to realize now is not this time. I have to live my age, an age where it is easier to take risks, an age where I am going to be bombarded with so many dreams I would not know which ones matter, an age where failure does not mean the end.
This world is so vast & there is so much for me to see. But it does not have to be now because I cannot have everything right now. I need to live the life I am given to understand the life I want for myself.
Maybe the dreams I chase now will get me nowhere, but in chasing them, I might stumble across the dream which takes me to my forever. So, for this I am willing to put time & energy, a little bit every day, like the fearless child I once was.
Life is now, so I do not want to lose myself chasing dreams. I am not going to be this young again so it is okay if I am not a young genius prodigy. I can take it slow while still enjoying the freedom & opportunities I have right now.
We are living in one of the best decades on this planet, & it also turns out to be a decade where change is everything. Accordingly, let us not remain stuck in the best moments of our lives for too long, lest the world leaves us behind.
We are going to have so many glimpses of forever along the way & they may only be lasting only for a short time; But someday I hope, all the temporaries remain forever.
Just few observations again dear friends, & provide merely an opinion in my world. Thank you again for stopping by, I appreciate your being here. If my journey encourages you also, all is well with my soul. I hope your days are filled with love & affection. Looking forward to being back next time; this is Kenn Butler in Paradise, Nelson with best wishes.
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