Choices…
Greetings dear friends & fellow navigators, welcome to my world this week. I have been seeing two worlds on my journey this last week. In the first world it does not take much to be happy. This is a world where residents do not associate satisfaction with money. The people of this world do not care who is ahead or who is behind them. Their eyes have a certain kindness in which they love to nurture & help others spread their wings, even if it takes those people higher than themselves.
Those in this world value the feeling of peace ~ a safe warm home, a gentle loving partner, a simple life in the countryside or a certain stability to experience the world for what it is. Life has a reasonable pace here & they are in no hurry because what they have now is already sufficient. Their purpose of existence may be modest to them. What it is all about is to feel connected to something beyond.
But the other world is more grandiose. The people here are hustlers. They have propelled the world to an age where there is a world within the world. The people here dream for a life of abundance. They understand how money has the potential to make life better, how fame can bring opportunities & would have never existed, perhaps how a single moment can change lives forever.
They love experiencing new things & the idea of driving to work in a Porsche sounds like a sweet dream. The people of this world are creators who want to create something bigger than themselves, every person is working towards a future where they can be proud of their achievements. Peace for them is knowing they do not have to make any compromise in life.
People from both sides of the world jump ship from time to time. As a growing young plant, I was torn between which world I wanted to belong to. With dreams as big as the world, I yearned to make it to the top, to leave a footprint in the sands of time, forever remembered. But I also wanted a life where I can feel connected to something greater, something beyond my control & live slowly to cherish it.
The darkness of the creator world has turned everyone into competitors. We have idealized businessman & women, actors & high-worth individuals as role models only to realize, it is all but a sham. Imagine putting in all this hustle, only to find out later, what truly matters is not even in this world.
I have mostly come to terms with spending my prime years without the motivation to make a positive impact on the world? As corporations expand & consumption accelerates, there is less expectation for any individual to single-handedly revolutionize the world. People now have the liberty to prioritize their own needs rather than think about the broader world.
Yet, why did it feel like I would be cheating if I let myself live an ordinary life? My problem was not with being ordinary, but with not trying to be extraordinary. No one is born special but people depart this world special.
This confrontation is not a simple one because the world is changing fast. What my parents valued differed from what I value. What I value, my son & daughter may not value.
Maybe the pursuit of excellence came first, paving the way for wisdom & experience to lead me to where I truly belong. Maybe this is when I would start feeling connected to the world outside my own. On the other hand, maybe finding peace & cultivating a calm, consistent heart precedes everything. This sense of completeness inspired me to make a positive impact on my surroundings, & thus kept my inner fire alive.
Alternatively, perhaps it could be about living harmoniously in both worlds simultaneously, where the drive to create a positive change co-exists with personal fulfillment. I am still not sure yet. It is a tough nut to crack. Maybe I have just been overthinking, or maybe this is what we all experience to some measure. Nothing is black & white. There are no instructions on which is the most rewarding way of living life.
But while I still tried to find an answer, I would bounce back & forth between going all out & taking it easy, so I could experience both these worlds in some measure. This two-world problem may not have a definite answer, but as I travelled to both these realms as a visitor, I still hope one day I can find a place I can call home.
Just few observations again dear friends, & provide merely an opinion in my world. Thank you again for stopping by, I appreciate your being here. If my journey encourages you also, all is well with my soul. I hope your days are filled with love & affection. Looking forward to being back next week; this is Kenn Butler in Paradise, Nelson with best wishes.
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