Letting Go…
Greetings dear friends & fellow navigators, welcome to my world again this week. I remember working some long days as well as working six day weeks before retyrement during the process of selling my business. As many may appreciate there is a huge amount of additional workload, however, the existing duties still require attention.
I came home one day late in the evening & wrote something for the business, However I could not relax. My mind was telling me I did not make enough effort during the day & consequently I did not make enough progress. I had guilt despite all my hard work.
It was so late & past my bedtime. I had not meditated yet during the day & felt bad. Neither had I been to the pool for my daily work out. So I went into this infinite scrolling of Google news & Twitter commentaries, which ultimately leads nowhere good.
I then watched a Dr. Joe Dispenza 1 video. He talked about how dopamine is released giving you feelings of pleasure, satisfaction & motivation. Dopamine also has a role to play in controlling memory, mood, sleep, learning, concentration, movement & other body
functions, which leads to addiction & “never having enough & needing more to get the necessary high”.
So I felt good in the moment, yet I was indulging in low vibrational beliefs fuelled by separation ~ Negative Emotions: ‘persistent feelings of sadness, anger, fear, or frustration which can be indicative of a low vibrational state. I could feel the almost extremely low level of energy as I was trying to cover my anxiety, which was not working but making it worse.
So I turned off the phone & the thoughts of shame & “you do not do enough” & “you are not safe” came in. I knew not to sit with this voice & just feel it. So I gave in, demanding to know “who it was”~ my inner child, trying to keep me safe perhaps? So I cried, I listened. I thanked them for the good intentions, yet felt the pain of the words.
The loudness, was overwhelming until I could not figure out, sort out & make a plan any longer to “do better”. So I let it go ~ I was overtired & I was done trying. Ironically, earlier in the day I also learned you do more “damage” to the brain & your situation by forcing yourself to find a solution when you are emotional.
So I took everything, as if I filled a balloon & handed it all to God to sort out. I was done. This peace took over & I stopped thinking, since it was futile to continue. I did not want to talk to my inner child, did not want to dig up the root of the voice. I saw this did not fix the problem, so I let it go. One by one the simple yet profound answers came in clearly to my challenges.
The one most memorable insight was ~ planning my non-working time ahead in advance so I can be present & not worrying about the past & future. Scheduling at the beginning of the week can ensure I have time for everything I prioritize.
I think I have managed to get to a point where I am beyond what I can figure out with my human brain. There is such peace in the letting go & in understanding ~ overthinking does not help. I am finding now most often, action or letting go, instead of thinking works best at this time for me.
Wishing you peace, a quiet mind & one of an inner child, feeling seen & safe ❤.
Just few observations again dear friends, & provide merely an opinion in my world. Thank you again for stopping by, I appreciate your being here. If my journey encourages you also, all is well with my soul. I hope your days are filled with love & affection. Looking forward to being back next time; this is Kenn Butler in Paradise, Nelson with my best wishes.
1 Dr. Joe Dispenza is a scientist, teacher, lecturer, & author. He was one of the scientists featured in the award-winning film What the BLEEP
Do We Know!? He is the author of several New York Times bestsellers, including a U-tube video: Relax & Trust. Expect it the same Day
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